I cry at night not knowing why.
I think of the past; I think of you.
We never really had anything
But why do I feel that we did?
I fell for you but you didn't catch me
So I fell to the ground,
And broke into pieces
Though my friends helped me through
The pain, I knew, would never leave me.

All this time I thought you were perfect
That was why I liked you so.
But after the drop, I awoke,
I saw your flaws
And decided I was done with you.

I finally convince myself that you were nothing
Just the first guy I ever met.
I continued to live my life
As if I never knew you,
I met new people, did new things
I moved on...
Or so I thought.

Then there were days, when you just pop in my head
For no reason at all, I remembered you
Your smile, your laugh, your voice.

I thought this foolish crush has left me
But it can't, if it were never there.
A crush could never fill a heart
So it was love, no more, no less.
And love like energy must be conserved.
It can't be created nor be destroyed.
It can only be transferred from one to another.

I laid on my bed, holding my phone
As I looked at your name.
And stared at it, for how long, unknown.
I think about your imperfections
But later I realize, it doesn’t matter.
My chest feels tight, I can't breathe,
I feel tears forming in my eyes.
For the past few years I kept saying,
"It's only a crush."
But today, i have to doubt,
Is it?

Love, they say, isn't blind
It can see, but thinks despite
You’re far from perfect that I know
But can I help it,
If you're the one?

My heart screams your name
And starts to break once more.
I think I may have fallen once again.
But I must be strong, I must hold on,
Because no one's there to catch me now like before.